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By Eddie Fu

some days feel so good nothing can get me down

other times so depressed weighed down to the ground

can't control the madness, irrepressible sadness

moods swinging back and forth like a pendulum

can't sleep at night - fight night within my brain

battles within my head driving me insane

only myself to blame destructive patterns repeated

smoking trees, drinking 40s, good advice not heeded

no light in my life - the tunnels endless

loneliness - no one ever understands my stress

emptiness - something's missing from my existence

looking for meaning in life, must have persistence

eternally vexed by this unhappiness forever

climbing out of this hole an impossible endeavor

my mother comes to mind as i think of suicide

too much to do before i die - ain't even a question

bad thoughts - must end them and smile again

the rain will end soon, just a matter of when

believe me rising from the bottom ain't easy

life without pain lacks lessons to be learned

only with suffering can wisdom be earned

find the strength to stay alive deep down inside

comes from within no saviors will arrive

thoughts dominate, no debate, here’s the mandate

seize the day treat each moment like its my last

optimistic perspective when skies are overcast

keep things simple to avoid overanalyzation

no regrets up until the final confrontation